Deserve It

Dec '23 - Nov '24
Gray Area AIR, San Francisco, CA
Halim performing Deserve It at Gray Area, San Francisco

Deserve It begins with a chair. A screen. A form. Participants are asked: “Are you a threat?”, “Do you have family here?” - most questions a variation on “Do you think you deserve to stay?” As you respond, your answers scramble. The artist behind the desk performs your choices, silently, ritualistically. He is a migrant caught in a feedback loop - part mechanical Turk, part oracle, part sacrificed witness. The machine never says yes. It only says: try again.

Over six looping hours, Deserve It unfolds as a durational performance where audience members sit at a terminal and fill out a fictional, but emotionally true, immigration interface. Their inputs are absorbed and interpreted live by the artist, whose movements translate digital hesitation into bodily response. The piece never quite resolves, just as the migration journey never quite ends. Sometimes people stray. That’s welcome. They return to find a welcome screen. A home icon. A ghost of origin.

Audience member seated at the terminal filling out the immigration interface

First performed at Gray Area in San Francisco, then remounted at Gallery-O-Rama, Deserve It is more than immersive theater - it is a reverse Turing test, a digital confession booth, a refusal of algorithmic neutrality. At its core, it asks: what does it mean to deserve a future? Inspired by cybernetics, Arab migration rituals, and the bureaucratic sublime, Deserve It critiques the cold violence of techno-administered borders - yet it does not despair. Instead, it absorbs, listens, and glitches. It makes space for pause. It turns the screen from a doom-scroll engine into a door. This is not a narrative. It is a system. Not a performance. A purgatory. Not a visa. A visitation.

Close-up of the performer behind the desk during the durational piece
Wide view of the Deserve It installation at Gray Area
Screen interface of the fictional immigration form
Gallery-O-Rama remounting of the Deserve It performance
Audience interacting with the terminal during Deserve It
Documentation of the six-hour durational performance loop